Archives, Biography, Pondering, Wheaton

Ubi Caritas

I had the most extraordinary experience on Maundy Thursday.  I was playing the piano for the small church where I presently worship.  It is part of the complicated map of American Anglicanism that regularly rearranges itself in this era.  I have a deep love for the beauty and truth of this prayer book tradition, even as I ache… Continue reading Ubi Caritas

Archives, Biography, Pondering, Wheaton

Left-Handed Prayer

When I was in Junior High I taught myself to crochet.  I would have asked someone to teach me but I had one problem—I was left-handed and everyone I knew who possessed a crochet hook was right-handed.  So I taught myself.  I learned to reverse the pictures on the page, and recognize the patterns reversed on my hook.  There… Continue reading Left-Handed Prayer

Archives, Biography, Pondering, Wheaton

Careening Carrots and Welcoming Worship

There was no doubt that I was somewhere completely "other" from the moment I got off the plane. It wasn't just the endless sun that never seemed to set as I continued to fly west and west and more west. It was the spicy air and the curved bent of an alphabet that had as… Continue reading Careening Carrots and Welcoming Worship

Archives, Pondering, Songs of Assent, Wheaton

Repainting the Portrait

Last week I met separately with two young women. Both are in their 20's, both are in serious dating relationships, both desire to "do this right," -and both see themselves and their beloved through the distorted lenses of difficult backgrounds. While the nature of their concerns were radically different, but their fear was so similar.… Continue reading Repainting the Portrait

Archives, Biography, Sons of Korah, Wheaton

Longing for Home

Earlier this week I was sitting on a bench in an outdoor shopping mall just before twilight. Around my feet crowded over a dozen sparrows, picking at the edges of the paving stones, tenaciously attempting to find some undiscovered crumbs in hidden cracks. I thought of the countless sparrows that regularly inhabit my backyard, emptying… Continue reading Longing for Home

Archives, Biography, Pondering, Wheaton

Spiritual Badminton

They started it. I had called the retreat center in March with more than a little angst. For reasons beyond my control, I needed to find a place for THESE DATES this summer. I had just a few people--but no flexibility with the timing. And I was late in signing up. The retreat director initially… Continue reading Spiritual Badminton

Archives, Biography, Pondering, Wheaton

Living Symbols

One of the pictures that frequently rests on my computer desktop is a photograph my friend Gigi took of St. Bartholomew's Chapel. This brave little "Pilgrim chapel"-white with bright red turrets-has stood since the 12th century between the Watzmann, the highest continuous vertical face mountain in the world, and the Konigsee---the deepest lake in Germany.… Continue reading Living Symbols

Archives, Biography, Pondering, Wheaton

The God Who Sees

Hagar fled from Sarai when her mistress's treatment was too hard to bear. David and his servants fled Jerusalem after Absalom stole the people's hearts. Elijah fled from Jezebel with her threats ringing in his ears. And I have tried to flee from the enemies lodging in my mind. Sometimes the wilderness is the only… Continue reading The God Who Sees